For some reason this week I have really been struggling with just my life in general. For those of you that don't know. I went to college and through a (TOUGH) Police Academy to become a Police Officer. This is what I really want to do, but due to the economy here in Michigan the state is making cuts to every department including closing State Police post and having officers work from home. This has made the job market close to impossible. Any job that is available has hundreds of applicants, most of which have years of experience from other departments that have had to make cuts. I have always thought I would just wait for the job market to turn around and get a job then.
Since I have had Mallorie I see things differently. I realized that coming home after work is more important. I like to look at is as I traded one dream for another. I traded a job in Police work to be a Mommy! This week at work I have just hit burnout. I just go in do my 8 hours and go home. It just pays the bills and the third shift is dragging me down.
I have always believed that everything happens for a reason. I saw this first hand back in the Summer of 2008. The State Police were holding an academy and I have made it through the intensive physical testing, pysch testing, and interview only to be told that they had good news and bad news. The good news was that I had made it into the academy but at this point they were full. If enough people drop out then I would be able to go to the academy. Need less to say I did not go. But in short, all of the students of the academy I should/could have been in received jobs where they were needed most (which meant we would have had to up and move and hubby would have had to quit his job), just to be laid off about 6 months later. They are still fighting to keep their jobs. I on the other hand I still have a very stable job. I know that everything happens for a reason and that every point of my life is already planned out for me.
I heard a song on the way to work to night that reminded me of that. This is my new favorite song and is my motivation to get through this.
I hope that this song helps you as much as it has helped me!